lead the way

yesterday, i let someone lead my way. i already had a lot of things planned out but decided to go with the flow. and you know what? it lead me to the right path. i went to startek together with james to apply for either a tsr/csr.

i was very edgy while i was there. one, because i sort of forgot that i already applied with that company online. i figured, if they didn't give me a call before, then why would they consider hiring me now? but as luck would put it, i got to move on to the next step, which was the online test.

since i signed up for the position of a tsr/csr, my test was composed of computer navigation, listening skills, grammar, typing, sales and lastly technical. i was very surprised with the technical exam because most of it was about html,commands and what-have-you's. in other words, computer jargons which i don't know what the hell means! the tech exam alone was 50 items, 50-what-the-hell-am-i-doing-here questions! i tried my best to answer it. i was never a techie person and my only tech support experience was with MLB.

after the exam, we were all sent back to the lobby to wait for the results. they were calling out names and giving out small notes. you can see some of them leaving after reading the note. i thought, i so do not want to get that note. fortunately, we didn't. out of 12, there were only 7 of us left - me and james included.

after a half an hour of waiting, my name was called again. i was asked to take a written exam -- a written tech exam. i wanted to appeal already but held back. i didn't want to jeopardize my application. the first page was all about codes and everything. i knew i was gonna fail the exam. however, the second page was all about wifi and internet connections. now, those are tech questions that i already knew.

after finishing the exam, i was asked to wait again. james was already done with his interview and was told that he is being considered for another account but would have to wait till they have the account set up. i felt sad because i was really hoping james would get the job. he needs it more than i do.

my name got called in. i finally had the guts to tell the interviewer that i wasn't really a techie person and would prefer to be assigned to customer service instead. she understood my concern but told me that i did pass the tech exam. (wahahahaha!) anyway, we got to warm up a little and the interview came out smoothly. she kept telling me how she would like to see me promoted if i get hired. i saw it as a good sign. i was kinda worried though when she said that after the voice assessment i would be scheduled for the final interview which may happen after 2 days, sometimes 5.

i did the online survey first, then was called in for the voice assessment. before we started, the lady who assisted me with the assessment told me to come back at 11 the next day for my final interview. i was so elated. seems like i didn't have to wait that long after all.

i got to finish my final interview today, which also turned out well, and left the building with the job offer on my hand. thank you, lord!

the training would start next month, which would give me ample time to finish my 15 days notice and finalize my resignation with mlb.

i sure am glad i followed james' lead. although he didn't get the job, it sort of brought us new hope since now we have to concentrate on him finding a job too. and i know it's gonna happen soon.

window

they say when that when He closes a door, they open a window. while i was hoping for an email from chase this afternoon, i chanced upon a job opening for paragon. a friend is already working there and he said the pay is a little promising. i just sent my resume via email and am expecting a call by tomorrow. hopefully, things will go well this time.

just had my 2nd interview for the week. oh the 1st one was yesterday, with chase. it seemed promising at first but after the voice assessment, it sounded like they weren't interested and till now,i haven't received an email from them.

i've typed in my resignation letter this morning but didn't have the chance to hand it over, although i was already in the area. i guess i just wasn't ready for it.

my second interview was with capital iq. it also looked promising but i think she got disappointed when i told her that i had a pending application with chase. i was told to wait until friday for the results of my interview. if i don't here from them after friday, then that means i didn't pass.

i feel so vulnerable lately. i feel like i'm not that good enough and i'm not even sure if i'll ever feel good enough. working with mlb seemed to be a lost cause and i don't even know if there's ever a chance for me to improve. i know that when the ramp down starts, i'll be one of those ill-fated agents to be transferred.

at this moment, all i could think of is grab the first company that would offer me a high paying job. doesn't really matter where it is, for as long as the pay is good.

tomorrow, i'm supposed to report back to work. i sorta miss it but since my heart is already bent on leaving, i don't think it's proper for me to put my heart in to it.

i don't know what will happen this week. things may change,things may not. i wanna say that i'm hoping, though i am still expecting the worst.

resignation

I've always hated that word. I've always thought that I would be the type of person who would stick with one job, doesn't matter if the job is sucky and the pay stinks.

I would have to say that there are other factors that are making me make the move right now. Factors that I wished didn't affect me. But here I am, on the move again, and even if it would mean hurting other people, I still have to make the move.

I once posted on my Facebook that I am heading the path with my eyes wide open, and that I wouldn't look back. But it's not that easy. It's hard to explain, because I do see my current job as home. Nothing beats to that feeling when you're working.

I guess I have the right to grieve. I can still cry if i want to, but I can't look back anymore. My journey begins ... finding a new life, a new home. and hopefully staying there for the rest of my life.