just had my 2nd interview for the week. oh the 1st one was yesterday, with chase. it seemed promising at first but after the voice assessment, it sounded like they weren't interested and till now,i haven't received an email from them.

i've typed in my resignation letter this morning but didn't have the chance to hand it over, although i was already in the area. i guess i just wasn't ready for it.

my second interview was with capital iq. it also looked promising but i think she got disappointed when i told her that i had a pending application with chase. i was told to wait until friday for the results of my interview. if i don't here from them after friday, then that means i didn't pass.

i feel so vulnerable lately. i feel like i'm not that good enough and i'm not even sure if i'll ever feel good enough. working with mlb seemed to be a lost cause and i don't even know if there's ever a chance for me to improve. i know that when the ramp down starts, i'll be one of those ill-fated agents to be transferred.

at this moment, all i could think of is grab the first company that would offer me a high paying job. doesn't really matter where it is, for as long as the pay is good.

tomorrow, i'm supposed to report back to work. i sorta miss it but since my heart is already bent on leaving, i don't think it's proper for me to put my heart in to it.

i don't know what will happen this week. things may change,things may not. i wanna say that i'm hoping, though i am still expecting the worst.